WORDS FROM MOOK- THE GRIND

Names Mook, Just a baby 19 years young. I’m not satisfied with life because I want much more. I’m Satisfied with the progression.
Just sitting around one day watching my high school years fly by. Watching the same guy/girl basically wearing the same shit as the last person. So I said fuck it I got nothing to lose.
I started a Clothing Line June of 07. It hasn’t been that long and I’ve produce a solid number of garments. Working 24/7 non-stop trying to make it to the top still to this day. You know what “they” say, hard work pays off right. =/
I just wish my camera was working. Maybe I could get some decent promo pictures, but I work with what life hands me.

A huge point that lead me to believe that creating a line was meant for me was the first time someone ever copped a tee from me. I had the big cool aid smile =) lol. F..&E Clothing is now in a boutique in Williamsburg. First and only store for now. There’s no feeling like seeing your creation on display, doing well! Maybe that’s how parents feel when their kid is achieving greatness. I don’t know. I’m on cloud NINE and I feel like I’ll never come down.

In the future I hope to be the man responsible for styling the biggest names in the entertainment business. Yea I can see that happening pretty soon. Haha

IM CHASING MY DREAMS, AND IM RIGHT BEHIND THEM!
Nothing ventured, nothing gained remember that.

Mook

WORDS FROM $ MOORE- A FATTER A$$

I AM NOT AN EMOTIONAL MAN, I NEVER CRY AND I SMILE RARELY. BUT TODAY MY HEART FELT IT, A GUN SHOT. I FELL FROM THE CLOUDS (A PLACE WHERE MY HEAD RESIDES OFTEN) AND ITS HERE THAT I AM BROKEN. MY EX/ MY FUTURE HAS MOVED ON AND NOW MY HOPES OF ONCE HOLDING HER AGAIN ARE LEFT TO BE DREAMS OF A REALITY NEVER TO BE KNOWN. FRIENDSHIP IS MY OPTION BUT LOVE WON’T LET ME PLAY THE SIDEKICK AND PRIDE WON’T LET ME SHAKE THE NEXT NIGGA’S HAND AS I STEP OUT THE WAY. SO GOODBYE IS MY CHOICE, A LONELY ONE BUT A PRIDEFUL ONE INDEED, I HAVE TO LOOK MYSELF IN THE MIRROR TOMORROW AND KNOW I WAS A G RIGHT UP TO THE VERY END, SO EVEN AS HER MEMORY AND MY SHATTERED DREAMS OF LOVING HER DRIFT SLOWLY FROM MY MIND THE KNOWLEDGE THAT I WAS A MAN (NO TEARS AND ALL SMILES) WILL COMFORT ME DURING THIS LIFETIME WITHOUT HER. WHAT WE WERE IS NOW BURRIED AND GONE, R.I.P. 330. TODAY BLOW’D AND TOMORROWS FUCKED, AND IT IS THIS BLEEK OUTLOOK THAT WILL REMAIN UNTIL MUCH LIKE MY “LOVE LOST” I MOVE FORWARD AND ONWARD TO A PRETTIER FACE AND A FATTER ASS… SORRY IM STILL LOOKIN FOR THE HIGH ROAD.

SAE “$” MOORE 

WORDS FROM HOLLEY MONELLE- DARE TO DREAM

2 months ago, I resigned from my day job. I knew tough financial times were among us. I’d heard the countless news stories about the impending recession. *shrug* I didn’t care. Well, I cared – but not enough to let it affect one of the most important decisions I’d ever make.

I was 24 making close to 60k a year, living on my own, no kids, and no financial worries but despite how things appeared on the surface – I was unhappy as hell. After almost 4 years with my company, it almost pained me to go to work in the morning and I couldn’t get through a day without a migraine. The reality is, sometimes you just outgrow things. Don’t get me wrong, I had two of the most awesome bosses on the planet but I wasn’t passionate about the work I was doing. Growing up, we’re taught that we should get “good jobs” so that we can provide for ourselves and our families. But why kill yourself doing a job you hate when you can make a living doing what you love? So – boom! I decided I’d do just that.

Two years prior, I walked into my college radio station and fell in love. After my first time on air, I knew it was what I’d devote myself to – it was the one thing I could wake up to every morning and never grow tired of. When the time was right, I’d take the chance. And two years later, I would.

After doing months of research, putting together a list of 100+ radio stations across 30+ states that I’d be willing to relocate to and mailing off an aircheck package to each station on the list, I quit my stable job during a recession to pursue a career in radio at a time where the broadcasting industry was at its worst, lol. Honestly – I’ve never been happier. I’ve learned to throw caution to the wind and I believe that you can fly without a safety net; so I’m doing just that. I haven’t landed the position that will catapult my career just yet – but I will.

The most important lesson I’ve learned through this process is that you can have anything thing you want, as long as you want it bad enough and pursue it as if you do.

Never let anyone dictate your steps. It is more than ok to dream; go for yours!

Holley Monelle

WORDS FROM B. FLY- UNTITLED

I’d much rather be seduced by your mental stimulation and verbal intercourse Instead of the incessant thoughts of animalistic copulation that once warped my mind
Perhaps you saw
But for me it was the blind leading the blind
Amnesic, as we sometimes are when the slither of lust crosses our minds
I totally ignored your lisp

WORDS FROM ASSATA- HAPPY?

So I’m thinking about giving up.  I’ve never really been a quitter.  If I know something is TOO hard, I just won’t ever start it.  But once I get going, I try to finish.  And it’s not ever so tough for me.  But that’s because I always have a plan.  And now I don’t.  I’m almost done with my degree, I have a decent job, a great apartment in the works, I’m completely healthy… I’ve gotten this far.  Great! Now what?  When you finish junior high, there’s high school.  Then there’s college.  Then what?  I love my job but I refuse to spend the next 30 years of my life working for the city.  I don’t see it happening but I don’t see anything else happening either.  I don’t have a plan.  So why not just clock out?  You know… stay at the 9 to 5.  Work with a bunch of angry people doing unimportant work until it’s time to retire. Or should I leap?  Do something completely outrageous and unpredictable.  Something not safe.  Attempt to save the world.  Or just do what will make me happy?  THIS is what brings on my anxiety attacks and it sucks.

I just want to be happy.  I have to leap.

WORDS FROM SHANA B- UNTITLED

Staring at Manhattan from my balcony (Or is that the Bronx?)
And I think…
One-What’s going on in Twitter world?…Technology has always distracted me from the real world …starting with the sims when I was 12, then aim became popular, then xanga had me writing journal entries to total strangers, myspace and facebook–serving pictures and status updates daily, then came the blogs…I can’t picture life without it ,then there’s my blackberry which I’d be sick for days if I lost it, and now Twitter…I might as well be a mute, because who needs a voice when you have 2 thumbs and a couple fingers?

Two-My life right now? Can someone explain it to me please? Lord knows I’m grateful for everything I have and I’m so not complaining cause life has been good to me…Yes, I’ve had my downs but that just makes me appreciate my ups even more…I’ve realized no one is perfect, believe that. I may have the lifestyle I want but there’s so much more to it…there’s so much more to LIFE period and I’m still trying to find that something to complete me… or someone maybe? Don’t know but I’m looking.

Signed,
Living. will Love one day. Laughing cause life’s too short for the tears…SB.

WORDS FROM SANZO- MUSIC

…because all music is, is an idea…all everything thought out and put togetheter, no matter how much preperation and work, it still and always will be, an idea…

WORDS FROM RAIN- MY THOUGHTS

My thoughts tonight and every night have been the same for the past week and basically my whole life; its just like that Kanye Song I Wonder ” I’ve been waiting on this my whole life, These dreams keep me up at night”… They seriously and truly do. My dreams are to basically take the fashion world by storm with women’s Ready to wear and to give a fresh new look to the fashion industry. Its kinda sort of happening but its like I’m the Turtle and the rabbits are just running past me. Even though the turtle wins the race in that story, I am not sure I can win my race. I guess you could say I always doubt myself and that will always be my downfall (i’m working on it) It amazing when people see you on the outside doing SO well and happy they don’t know how you are screaming on the inside for the bright sunshine of hope that proves dreams are real and if you dream it you can do it.

My path is sort of different and I always wonder ” What if I did that? What if I stayed in school? What if I never left NY? What if I never broke up with him? where would i be today? ” so many questions which always turn me back to a place I always hate, that sad place of disappointment and regret. I promised myself a long time ago I would never go back there but I always seem to find myself there when ever my thoughts get a hold of my entire body. I snap out of it and try to stay positive, its those dreams that keep me going to stay up a little longer and finish sewing or to keep writing those letters to buyers or just to keep trying. Its blessing when God gives you a talent and he opens the gates, doors, windows and everything for you to succeed. He has placed the unthinkables in front of me and Im still here. Despite being broke, no phone and my parents and soo many others hating on me Im still here. Because I know my destination but the time isn’t right and god’s plan is god’s plan. I will try and wait here patiently as I sew every night and continue to push myself to a new day. Keep on PUSHing.
P- Pray
U- Until
S- Something
H- Happens

Xo

Rain

WORDS FROM CHANEL- I AM

As I sit and watch sister act 2 and lauren hill starts to sing his eye on a sparrow, I’m taking back to one of the most breath taking experiences of my life. My grandmothers funeral, oxygen was nonexistent and this feeling was all to familiar being that as a child I was a severe asmatic. This woman was my rock, my idol, my mother, my everything and not to mention the most comforting soul but took no bullshit at all. So weird as I sat in this chapel and  heard my fav song from my fav movie at MY GRANDMOTHER’S Funeral! Who the hell chose the song selection??!!  I couldn’t breathe therefore I couldn’t  declare my opposition so I just sat there trying to make sense of it when I couldn’t. I was only 17 she was at least supposed to make it till I was 40 and up, college,marriage, kids. I didn’t even graduate high school yet how is this possible??!! Wtf happened to time,  she was just waking me up so that we could be on our way to Alvin Aliey so I could rehearse for my spring show to Austin Powers theme song. To this day I don’t know how I manage without her. She gave me lessons on ppl that I met yesterday, 7 years ago,how did she know it all? She always told me not to waste time as a woman especially on men.”Never settle if he really loves you he’ll join you not set you back, travel honey than think about it”.Ha! Such a wrong time to tell me that I was 15 and “in love” thinking why is she soo bitter? Now 21 and knowing everything she met in saying that statement and being looked upon just how I looked at her is, too comical. How did it happen this way? Everyday I wish I could just tell her about everything she was right about, but I guess its just like talking to myself bc I am Her. I’m reassured every time I have a conversation with someone and they ask me what is my real age bc I’m too ahead in my time but I just guess I’m 63 at 21.

WORDS FROM WENDY- AYANA

you have yet to imagine whats waiting for you outside your mothers womb
a world of ugly- you are born into a world of hideous
a world you were not expecting
why didn’t you fight harder against your mami’s vaginal muscles
you could’ve avoided a few extra seconds of pain
shame on you
Nut now you’re here and hungry
And as you empty out your mother
You’re getting higher and higher
As you empty out your mother, your little brain fries in the cheapest of mazola oils
She feeds you the poison that will later make you bitter
More bitter than limon con sal
SAL DE AQUI, DEJANOS TRANQUILOS
Cried your developing eyes
Against that enfamil-looking powder that made your mami
lie-steal-die
Sigh
This is not what you expected
Mami leaves and you become a woman at age 10-4
You become a woman at age 2+1
You become a woman at age 7*3
YOU BECOME A WOMAN AT AGE FOUR
Before you can even add, subtract, multiply
Mami isn’t around to experience this special occasion
But she does leave behind a PIECE of HERSELF to care for you
She leaves behind her brother, a PIECE of HERSELF that ensures you receive more care than you can handle
She leaves behind a PIECE of HERSELF
and now your experiencing a PIECE of HIMSELF
invading your once innocent body
A body that experiences gentrification WORSE than that of Harlem
Her dark insides hold no property value therefore they must be overtaken and renovated by his
FUcKING WHITE CUM
You pain is so elevated that you enter rhealms of unconsciousness
You convert in buddhism and await reincarnation
for this life has started out WAY TO PAINFUL

Wendy